Knowledge Acquisition

Okay, I haven’t talked about my linguistic acquisitions (or anything) in quite some time. Things are going….okay….I suppose. I am presently working on learning eleven languages on and off. This is down from twelve, where I eliminated one and replaced another. In both cases, I wasn’t effectively gelling with the languages and felt that my time could be better spent focusing on a different language where I had both an affinity and some familiarity due to loanwords and linguistic familial relation. The languages I’m currently focused on via Duolingo, dictionaries, and books on tape are:

1. German – Primary focus language.
2. Spanish – Secondary focus language.
3. French – Secondary focus language.
4. Mandarin Chinese
5. Korean
6. Hawaiian
7. Norwegian
8. Danish – Newest acquisition.
9. Irish
10. Swedish
11. ASL – Currently only alphabet studies.

The ones that were, at one point, the Lingua Franca or that have a lot of societal influence are a bit less stressful to learn. It doesn’t mean that they’re “easy”, rather just less stressful due to loanwords. To be honest, German is making my brain fuse neurons right now on Duolingo. I can’t get out of English sentence structure when thinking. Though I did scare myself on a few sleepy occasions when I managed to make it through my Duolingo practice with few errors. I still don’t know how I did those as I could barely see the tablet.

With the newest language, Danish, most of it is knitting related words I’m learning from the television show Den Store Strikkedyst. I am hoping that listening to this will translate into some level of understanding. At any rate, I can’t go wrong learning the language of a knitting culture. It opens up my world of patterns, that’s for sure.

I dropped one language and switched another to pick up Danish. The one I switched was Swahili and the one I dropped was Hindi. In both instances, I was going nowhere fast with my acquisition rate. Hindi was focused on learning the alphabet and I wasn’t retaining Swahili. Perhaps I’ll come back to these languages in the future. I did find both very interesting.

I’ve been so focused on languages that nearly everything else in my educational schedule has fallen by the wayside. I haven’t done much more than rudimentary mathematics for budgeting and household management. Science has been relegated to watching videos on YouTube. This is the first thing I’ve written out that wasn’t directly language related. Recently, I just haven’t had the time for much due to doctor’s appointments and helping the Maternal Parental.

I am planning to renegotiate my schedule to incorporate more learning. My good friend and I are going to teach ourselves Python and according to them, Python is heavily Monty Python referencing. That’s a boon for me as I’m a pretty big fan, thanks to PBS. I haven’t seen every singular thing of theirs though. All the more reason to visit my local library.

I also have the often moved appointments with learning more about Rigid Heddle Loom Weaving and about various applications to contend with. My problem is, with so many doctor’s appointments, I never have the time to focus on anything I can’t carry with me. Languages are less difficult because I can carry my phone which has Duolingo on it. The Rigid Heddle Loom strapped across my back would be a bit more problematic. So would learning all the applications inner workings. It is a lot of reading and video watching as well as computer time. Even if I focused on the reading and videos, it would burn my battery in my phone before I could get even a tenth of it done.

So, I’m determined to set aside a significant block of home time for all of this. This home time may put a kink in my plans to be more sociable. I’m currently telling everyone to talk with me in late October.

Also on the horizon is NaNoWriMo 2019. I have yet to come up with anything. Not a story, not an outline, not so much as a glimmer of an idea has surfaced regarding my writing. I think I’m just too burned out from everything else. I am also still knitting the sweater for the Maternal Parental. I’m hoping to finish it before November but it isn’t looking good. This sweater will be a year long project on 20 October 2019. I really want to finish it before that date.

I’m currently exhausted but I’m going to focus on knitting and languages over the next few days during my free time. The clock is ticking.

 

Life Goals – Trauma Mitigation

I am making an effort to be present in the moment and to be more positive…again.

 

No, seriously.

 

To be honest, I don’t even know where to begin with this effort. I am so thoroughly morose and robotic a personality that, until this morning, I didn’t see a way out of it. I was looking at an Instagram and got the inspiration to do this. This path isn’t even remotely me. However, I would like to challenge myself to become a different version of myself. I tend to keep people at arm’s length at the best of times due to past traumatic events. My reasoning was always that they can’t hurt you if you don’t let them in. Yet, I know, that this line of thinking has ultimately led to my own isolation. Not that I mind it. It’s just that, in order to function in society, one needs to actually be…in society. *shudders*

 

Who knows if this will even be possible? Sometimes, I think I’ve been cut off for so long that no one will accept my efforts at becoming more gregarious. Gregarious at all even. Yet, I have to make the effort. Between the Agoraphobia/Anxiety and the trauma, I don’t have many friends outside of the Internet. Even those friends, I only see sparingly.

 

So, my plan to become more gregarious is to restart my woefully neglected gratitude journal. I tend to lean towards Catastrophizing in thinking about things and I think writing about the things I’m grateful for with give me some perspective. As ‘No’ is my favorite word, I don’t think I need to learn boundaries at this point but rather, I should learn to renegotiate the chasmically wide boundaries I’ve set for myself and occasionally let others into my world.

 

I also resolve to take walks outside and…say hello to people. Perhaps not all will be suitable for friendship but some might be. I’ve got to give them a chance. If I get trouble again, I’ll ignore it if it is verbal and walk away or defend myself if it is physical. I will also make it my mission to go to the Library on a regular basis again. They’ve got books, events, classes, and other media that I find interesting.

 

I’m not going to wait until some imagined future date when my body is healed this time either. I get the feeling that time is never coming. I’m starting this whole thing today.

 

Thanks for reading. Have a fantastic day.

 

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This Isn’t Amusing Anymore…

When I first was diagnosed with this tendon injury, I thought it was amusing in a certain light. Basically, I got de Quervain’s Tenosynovitis from knitting too much. I thought it would be gone within a few days to a week, like my Primary Care Physician said it might even if I did have to rest it a full month. I was eagerly anticipating going back to crafting and getting all the projects done in my active queue as well as my project queue. Apparently, this isn’t the way it is going to occur. My thumb is blazing and shooting tendrils of pain up my wrist and into my forearm. This is interfering in my life now. Not cool.

 

I managed to crochet something without putting pressure or stress on my left hand and now my right hand is starting up. *sigh*

 

At this point, all I can do is type and weave. I’m not sure about sewing. I’m going to give it an effort though. I need to be doing something creative to keep me sane. I was hoping to bust a small sweater out for NaKniSweMo but it doesn’t look like that’s going to happen. So, I am learning more on the ins and outs of my Rigid Heddle Loom and my Sewing machine. I am also learning as much as I can about Weaving and Sewing. I saw a cool tutorial on a Mennonite YouTube channel for how to make a simple dress. Normally, dresses are offensive to me but this particular pattern looked cool.

 

I am also gearing up for NaNoWriMo. I’m completely clueless as to what I’m going to write about this year. However, I am not going to do it by the seat of my pants as I have done in previous years. All I ever do when I pants it is write myself into corners and loops. This year, I’d like to finish a coherent story without getting stuck and dropping everything once I get past fifty-thousand words.

 

Something’s got to pop up in my head eventually. I hope…

 

I should really go to bed now. Either that, or read.

 

Good night, World. Take care.

 

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