It’s Getting Real Rather Quickly

I had quite forgotten I’d finished a significantly long (for me) story at around this time of year in 2013. Thank you, Facebook’s On This Day, for reminding me. I’m going to take that as a positive indicator that I can do NaNoWriMo and stop panicking.

 

Also, new vlog coming up soon-ish. I got a 128gb card for my phone which freed up my 64gb card (999 minutes) for my camcorder rather than the 2gb (30 minutes) card I was using. Now, it’s only battery life holding me up and my camcorder can film while plugged in so…it’s just a question of finding a good angle to position the camera or cord with length to make that possible.

 

Yesterday was the twenty-seventh anniversary of the death of one of my greatest friends. She died in a fire in 1988 ten days shy of her eighth birthday. For the first time since then, I haven’t gotten hyper morbid or super depressed. I suppose that’s progress? When I finish this novel, I’ll see about dedicating it to her memory.

 

Come 15 October, I’m not going to be online as much as I normally am as I’m fully dedicated to completing this novel. I’ll try to check in from time to time though and I’ll definitely be back after 30 November hopefully with a completed book under my proverbial belt.

 

The Rainstorm II socks are a little over half complete now. I should have them done just in time for my semi-hiatus. I sincerely hope, because everything except dear ones, eating, bathing, and other necessities is getting put on hold starting 15 October.

 

 

Anyone got any good writing music recommendations to keep me motivated during this?

 

Oh yes, I’m getting a newer, better desk on Wednesday. Finally! Yay!

 

I’m lugging 124lbs of material up my stairs by myself tomorrow before doing a two person effort by my lonesome. I reckon I’m good for it though as I’ve previously put together the television stand mostly by myself and two bookcases completely by myself and they’re all by the same manufacturer, South Shore.

 

I think that’s everything. I wish you all the best during this month and a half of minimal communication. Now I go to knit. Later!

No Halloween For You!

I feel terrible even writing this out but it has to be done. I’ve got mounting bills sitting on my back and so…I’ve decided not to buy for Halloween this year. Crying face

 

The kids are going to be devastated but it has to be this way. My door will be dark this year. Instead, I’m going to watch a marathon of movies and television shows while I cry my eyes out at not celebrating my favorite holiday. Also, I hope to be finished with this sweater by then and gearing up for NaNoWriMo. I hope so at any rate.

 

As to the sweater, I’m doing well thus far. I’m into the jacket portion of the knitting and on my way to the first of the body decreases. At the rate I’m knitting, I should definitely be finished with it (or intensely frustrated by it) by Halloween. I have to believe in myself that I can accomplish this feat.

 

Aside from these things, I’ve been writing again. I’m a little further along in my Poly story. Though, admittedly, I’m making some of it up as I go along. I originally intended on moving the family to India or something but France just seemed a natural place to put them. I’ve been posting snippets of the story on my Facebook page for my friends to see but, at the present, I’m not ready for it to be seen by “The Multiverse”.

 

The Aerogarden of Hope is doing fantastic. I just pruned the tomatoes pretty heavily and the peppers less so yesterday. Hopefully, this will aid in the development of tomatoes and Jalapeno peppers. Water changing day is in eight days and I’m looking forward to it as I plan on watering my soil babies with the used Aerogarden water. I figure its better than letting it go down the drain. All those nutrients still in the water can go towards other plants and that water can quench the thirst of a lot of dried out plants.

 

Tonight’s agenda is writing and listening to a bevy of inspirational musical scores. Take care, Everyone. Later! Rolling on the floor laughingRed heartRainbow

Keeping Up With It

It is currently three days into this writing project and I’m doing very well. I’ve managed to put something up on my blog for each day of the project. I haven’t missed a day yet and I hope not to miss a day.

 

Today’s prompt included a secondary goal. I am supposed to commit to a writing practice to free write for a minimum of fifteen minutes a day. I think I’m up to doing that. I am familiar with the format of Free Writing, as it is the means I use to write most of my stories. I am hoping to get something coherent out of what I put out. There was also a secondary prompt in that I’m supposed to find a new article to include in a blog post. Oy…

 

In case you were wondering, this is the Free Write for today.

 

I haven’t knitted or crocheted since Sunday. I’m hoping to get something done tonight on the October Rust Birthday Shawl. Picking my brains for words has proved exhausting to say the least. I am thankful that something is coming out. However, it seems to be sapping my creativity in other areas. I’m hoping that tonight will be different.

 

A joyous thing for me, I’ve gotten three series of Knitting Daily (500, 600 and 700) in the mail today with four more (800 through 1100) coming in tomorrow. Thanks to those sales, I got it all for really cheap. I only wanted the first eleven series as I don’t really have a fondness for the format of the show after series 1100. Even with my favorite designers, I couldn’t warm to series 1200 and afterward. So, I’ll be watching my DVD collection for information and inspiration as far as Fiberarts are concerned.

 

Aside from that, I’ve got a tripod and such coming. The tripod is for me so I can do vlogs and upload them to YouTube. Goodness knows why I want to do this, but, for some reason, I want to make video blogs about what it’s like having agoraphobia, bipolar disorder, PTSD, anxiety etc as well as other things in my day to day life. It’ll all be on my YouTube channel for *gulp* everyone to see.

 

Why am I doing this again? Oh yeah, I’m supposed to be stretching my boundaries to further aid my recovery. Crying face

 

Most likely, it’ll be me reading from one or more of my books to start off with. Then, I’ll field questions. Hopefully, I won’t fall flat on my face.

 

Tonight’s agenda is to do the next writing assignment and prompt, do some crocheting, watch some Knitting Daily and get ready for tomorrow.

 

Take care, Peoples of the Sun! Rolling on the floor laughingRed heartRainbow

Upcoming Stuff

It’s my birthday!!! It’s my birthday!!! It’s my birthday… *dancing*

 

My birthday is coming up, within the next two weeks. I’ll be 34 years old. Yes, ancient. Kidding. Birthday cake

 

I’m hoping to drop a few “Shocking!!!” things this year. I’m not going to say what they are until they come to fruition. There’s a nice vague mystery for you all to ponder. Rolling on the floor laughing

 

Nothing much else is happening in my life right now. I am working on a few crafting projects, Billy the Bear, the Rainstorm II socks and Bruce’s gloves (sporadically).

 

I am almost completed Billy The Bear. He’s for the Paternal Parental. I should have him completed by tonight but here’s a picture of him from earlier today.

 

Yes, that is my messy cluttered desk the bear is sitting on. This pattern is from Lion Brand Yarns and is one I’ve done previously. I made a bear for the Maternal Parental, only for hers, I used a G hook. This time, I used an H hook and got a bigger bear for my bargain. The name of the pattern is Buddy Bear and the pattern number on Lion Brand is 80359.

 

Once I get the above pattern completed, I’ll probably go back to the Rainstorm II socks.

 

This pattern is a dream to work. It’s called the Misti Sock Family and it’s the largest Men’s size I’m using because I happen to be a Hobbit. Kidding. My feet are large though. I wear a 9.5US Men’s shoe. This is the fifth time I’ve used this pattern to make socks to completion. I did make an attempt to do four at a time but got sidetracked by other projects and frogged them. I am currently 45% completed with this project. Yay!

 

The only other thing I have on my plate at this time is this mystery blogging project from WordPress. Starting tomorrow, I will perform the tasks as I receive them in my e-mail. I have no clue what it’s going to be about. I just know that I am going to complete it all. I’m determined to do it. I spend quite a bit of time either excoriating myself or outright running away from potential writing projects as they come up due to fear. Fear of judgment and fear of success. I have a big issue with self-esteem when it comes to writing. 2015 is the year this changes for the better. Sun

 

Who knows? Maybe this new attitude will lead to my finally doing NaNoWriMo.

 

Tonight’s agenda is: watching The Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers with the Maternal Parental. Filmstrip

 

Have a fantastic day, Peoples of the Sun. Rolling on the floor laughingRed heartRainbow

Kicking Booty Today

For anyone that knows me, or has at least perused my profile, you know that I’m agoraphobic. I have been homebound agoraphobic since April 2011 and I was formally diagnosed in June 2011.

This morning, I did something I haven’t done in a very long time. With no one aiding me and no one meeting me, I went to the market all by myself and did some shopping. Now, that particular action hasn’t occurred in my life since November 2009.

So, I am very f-ing proud of myself right now.

On top of this, I am meeting with a friend I met via OKCupid this afternoon. One minute you’re down and the next, you’re right back up.

Now, if you’ll excuse me, I’m going to go eat some Pepperjack cheese while making bread so I can have some ghetto Pappa Al Pomodoro. 😀

Feeling Good

I worked out for one solid hour along with two exercise programs. This marks the first time I have exercised in more than six months. I’ve got to keep this up everyday so I can build resistance. Right now, I’m feeling pretty tired and worn out from the workout I did but I also feel good.

I even managed to update my Wellsphere account. That truly is damning on my part. It shows my lack of exercise pretty dramatically. Fingers crossed, that will change.

My initial goal, as stated on the site is to exercise for an hour five times a week. Another goal I plan on adding is to take a walk, out there, at least once a week to start off. This agoraphobia isn’t going to beat itself, so I figured that would be a good way to combat it.

In other news, my baby is in a box right now waiting to be picked up for repairs.*sigh*

I miss her already. No offense to my desktop but my laptop is where I have all my fun. I only do work-ish related things on the desktop like writing stories, making schedules and studying etc. My laptop is also where I do my health updates via Twitter. Those are going to be on hold until I get her back. It just doesn’t feel right doing it on the site when I’ve done it so many times via Twhirl. Hopefully, by the time I get my laptop back, I’ll have done something worthy of reporting like losing ten pounds.

Oh well, time to get dressed and time for breakfast…not those biscuits either. Oatmeal.

Internal Review

Ever so often, I get the urge to dig deep within myself to figure out what is still working with me as a part of my core ethical matrix and what may be, after careful evalulation, discarded as outmoded to my current mental/psychological configuration.

I must admit that it’s been a while since I’ve done this, so I feel that this is a process that is long overdue.

When not studying, ha ha, I will be studying as much as possible for me to do so on a variety of subjects in the hopes of properly giving myself a broader perspective and better idea of where I am right now.

I just feel I need to do it. After I eat this salsa, that is.

So, you poor friends of mine who know a lot in your respective fields. Prepare for the questions. ;p